Day 9 & 10: Trying and Emotional

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Yesterday I didn't have time to blog. I am trying to make ends meet, so I've been working. Yesterday was an okay day, but filled with a lot of work. Sometimes work stresses me out when there are unorganized employers, but in the end I know it is worth it. DB is counting on me to take his place while he can't. Sweet Pea and Lil' Bean are depending on my ability to support them. I do what I can. I won't let them go without.

Today was a really hard day for me. I've been really emotional and struggling with the kids. It seemed like they were both crying at the same time all day. I took them to Walmart and Lil' Bean cried the entire way home. I couldn't keep Sweet Pea off the stairs while I unloaded everything and brought the stroller in. Today really took a lot out of me. I miss DB a lot and I really wish the courts would change things. I am hoping our first session together at Chrysalis will change things. I have no help. I don't know anyone here. I just want my life back. I want my family that I created back. That family includes myself, DB, and both boys. I want us all together again. I want to feel whole again.